Sensory Overload

i can hear every breath

every movement

every sound

i hear myself listen

i feel every muscle

i sense every tensing

i fear every breath 

for the rising of my chest

i internalize every emotion

as if the world is not only on my shoulders

crushing my head

collapsing my legs

bringing a blanket of black to my eyes

i calm

i sit

i wait 

i ponder

i take my mind off all the noise

just to be disappointed

staring at an empty room