woman

i'm still trying to figure out what it means to be a woman

You see i was born a human

And raised as a girl

And became a woman

And inherited fear

Bought into beauty

Dug around in my heart for that smile i was begged for

But how do i be a woman

How do i live every second with a song in my lungs that men grab

A song they fight for yet never listen to

How do i fight for something i don't know exists

A justice i've never seen

For a group of people that i had to learn how to become

Never once fighting for the individual

How do i sit next to people who make me feel like an object

But walk into an office for a company that i founded to help make objects into women

Yet what kind of magic do i have to have to turn their silence into sound

When you say you crave their voices but hear words that you do not accept

i wonder every morning when i wake up how do i live up to the word woman

How do i become the stereotype

How do i raise a daughter with the values of a strong woman

When i cannot even figure out what a woman is

Does it mean strong

Does it mean speechless

Does it mean fearless

Does it mean above it all

Does it mean safety

Does it mean insurance

Will it explain every moment I was wronged

Oh shes just a woman

Will it strike fear into the hearts of those who say that

Will it stand up for the human its defining

Will it be more than just a word

Will i ever realize that i define it

Will it ever mean me

Bunched together in a group that it need not be

An individual

A woman

me